accelerating SUV's

As I was returning home from a good weekend escape to Houston with just enough work tied in to pay for my trip, I got stuck on repeat with another driver on the road. I was driving my usual 5-7 miles over the speed limit and this other SUV showed up on my tail at one point, I moved into the right lane to let them pass as any courteous driver does and let them speed right past while thinking I hope they don't get pulled over. Said SUV after passing myself returned to the right lane only to slow down causing me to pass them. This pattern was repeated 4 times in the next 5 min and began to irritate me. I thought to myself, if they pass me and slow down again, I am just going to block them and cut out this nonsense... Then I got to thinking, is that the attitude God would want me to have? As i was pondering this, it came to me is that this is often what I do to God... I ask for his help, then I pass it by when its offered only to mess up fall down because I am trying to do it myself, and end up right back where I started behind.

God, please don't give up on me or become frustrated with me. I know I am often that irritating SUV, and I will try to be content staying behind you and traveling at the speed you have set on your cruise control for my life rather than gunning ahead. I know that you have a plan, a time line, and goals for my life and I want nothing less than to adhere to them. Thank you so much for your guidance, protection, and love for my life!

feeling unfulfilled/complacent

So I have reached a point where once again I am feeling unfulfilled in my life. I realized that if I were to stay in my current profession and job forever I would feel like a failure in my life. Is there ever a point where you feel like you are good? Where you feel like you have achieved what your supposed to?
I know I should feel blessed and appreciative with everything God has given me thus far, and I am but I feel stagnant. I know when we feel this way I need to step out and take something else on... the question is what? and when do I have time? Is it time for me to be a little reckless and not wait for logic, not wait for good timing and just trust God and go? I already have plans to make a big step in the next year or two, but do I wait? In Zephaniah 1:12 the Bible tells us "It will come about at that time That I will search Jerusalem with lamps, And I will punish the men Who are stagnant in spirit, Who say in their hearts, 'The LORD will not do good or evil!' While my spiritual life is not completely stagnant, all parts of our lives are connected, and maybe it is and I jsut don't feel it hitting me yet. Which is in fact quite possible. So now I have 2 problems.. great, I love when I blog and make myself more aware.... UGH!
What are some ways you change complacency in your lives?

In an effort to stay sane and be a little humorous on a Monday morning I thought I would do this instead of making myself put my incoherent thoughts together...Who Are You?

In an effort to stay sane and be a little humorous on a Monday morning I thought I would do this instead of making myself put my incoherent thoughts together...

Who Are You?

1. What time did you get up this morning? 5:00

2. How do you like your steak? On someone else's plate

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Humm... sweeny todd manybe... it was that long ago I know.

4. What is your favorite TV show? Big Brother and Grey's

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Wherever my creator sends me... Somewhere I can help people and expand my eternal circle of friends.

6. What did you have for breakfast? Chlorinated water :)

7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican and Cajan

8. What foods do you dislike? This list is way too long so I'll go with all the stuff I'm allergic to :)

9. Favorite Place to Eat? Mercado's, Roosters, the little greek place at my condo

10. Favorite dressing? Ranch or Raspberry Vinegerette.. and Huckelberry if it ever gets here!!!

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Nissa Xterra

12. What are your favorite clothes? Anything that make me look thin!

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? All of Europe, Australia, Greece exp. the islands

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? My cup Runneth OVER

15. Where would you want to retire? well since I want to change professions to Missionary.. I don't ever plan on retiring :)

16. Favorite time of day? When I crawl into my bed whatever time that may be :)

17. Where were you born? Odgen

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? None anymore... jk Gymnastics, swimming, football, volleyball, soccer

19. Bird watcher? not unless you count my observations of them flying in V's in the middle of July Why ?
20. Are you a morning person or a night person? I would say night, but I am up early so who knows...

21. Do you have any pets? Only the sweetest Chihuahua ever!

22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? Not yet, ask me Wednesday!

23. What did you want to be when you were little? A Doctor.

24. What is your best childhood memory? Hanging with my dad

25. Are you a cat or dog person? Dog

26. Are you married? Only to my savior

27. Always wear your seat belt? Yes

28. Been in a car accident? yeah a few...

29. Any Pet Peeves? so many, unorganization being at the top of that list, for myself and others :)

30. Favorite Pizza Toppings? I have really become fond of spinach and feta pizzas with alfredo sauce

31. Favorite Flower? Orchids and Hibiscus with a few plumeria thrown in :)

32. Favorite ice cream? Strawberry shortcake Skinny Cow

33. Favorite fast food restaurant? Chic-Fil-A

34. How many times did you fail your driver's test? None

35. From whom did you get your last email? a friend

36. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Marshals or Steinmart, target, TJMaxx

37. Do anything spontaneous lately? not so much, I should work on that.
38. Like your job? Yes, somedays.

39. Broccoli? Yes!

40. What was your favorite vacation? Anywhere with my friends.. Cruises are always a safe bet!

41. Last person you went out to dinner with? a bunch of friends

42. What are you listening to right now? Dora.. i'm learning spanish so immersing myself everyway I can

43. What is your favorite color? PINK - The Perfect Princess Color

44. How many tattoos do you have? None. Why would you want to put something permanent on a temporary vessel that is going to succumb to gravity thus making your tattoo unrecognizable.

45. What time did you finish this quiz? 11:00

First day!

First days of school are always interesting... this year was no different. I set my mind to start swimming every morning before work. I need to do it, and the first day of school seemed like the perfect day to start since I would be starting a routine and then I would be good. Started out perfect! Got up at 4:45 got to the gym by 5 and in the pool I went. 2000 yards later at about 6:00 I got out and noticed my eye was in excruciating pain... humm chlorine must be strong. Nope turns out I took a chunk out of my cornea... How do you do that swimming... I have NO clue, but somehow I managed. So off to the eye Dr. I went about 30 min into school after he opened... thankfully he is a friend and took care of me quickly, but I looked like I was crying all day out of one eye! Ugh. No makeup, hair a mess, and crying out of one eye... goodness gracious what a day!

i'm still alive

So I still exist, and I am actually doing quite well, I have just been extremely busy and for most of the summer away from my computer. My summer was filled with many trips, eye opening revelations, and much needed family, friend, and even a little rest time thrown in. Pictures of all of this will follow, but for now I wanted to share a new plan for my life thanks to this summer and of course my Awesome Father, God!

As mentioned last spring, I went on a mission trip to Honduras with a group from my church in June. It was amazing! It was tiring! It was uplifting! It was revealing! It was inspiring! I could keep going, but for the sake of keeping my few readers interested I won't. :) What I will say is that my life makes sense now. All the trials in my life the past 3 or 4 years did in fact lead to something greater, the people who have come in and out of my life make sense, and all the moves have a purpose. What can I say, patience does have its rewards and being open to God's plan and following often blindly, getting your heart broken by thinks not going the way you want... well they do in fact lead to something greater than you could ever imagine. When I get more information, I'll share even more.

must use left foot!

So my job sent me to South Padre Island for about 4 days, where while there were meetings going on, I planned on relaxing more than working! I took my sweet bike and was very excited about getting on it again without the fears of being blown off with the coastal winds and crazy drivers I face in Port Lavaca. So after about a 2 month hiatus from my bike, due to ankle injury and winds, I had plans of biking a lot over my time when I wasn't on the beach, in the ocean, or in meetings. The first night out, I was doing good riding along a friend running, keeping it conversational and relaxed... for me at least. We came to the end of the island and had to cross so I had to go to the main drag at an intersection with only a stop sign to cross the road and get to the beach side on the island from the bay side. I came to the stop sign unclipped my right foot... and the next thing i knew I was on the ground on top of my bike with my left foot still clipped in... seriously its been 2 months not 2 years... I then thought back and i always unclip my left foot to stop...ALWAYS! I am apparently not capable of stopping with my right foot. Crazy I know! remember when stopping left, not right!

Recieving Love

Sometimes often I struggle with letting people in... In fact if you know me and you read this you'll probably be shocked. For the past year and a half I have had various people tell me I need to let people in, let people love me, and care about me the way I try to for everyone else. People I consider my best friends I have lost or have gotten so frustrated with me they have given up in fact. This of course has just made me want to be harder, rely less on people b/c now its been brought to my attention I cause them pain when all I want to do is everything to lessen their pain. Its been happening my whole life, it just took some amazing Godly people the last 2 years to finally tell me. So tonight I am reading a book called "90 min in Heaven" by Don Piper and Holy Moly he went through the same thing, always a people helper never a receiver... But so far it seems that he only had to be told once... My thick stubborn head takes 2 years
to decide to listen. I may even have an idea finally how to put my receiving self out there. See if you can figure it out for yourselves :). God is so good to bring this to me and to be a constant reminder not only to receive but to be grateful for it. After all that is how we are to be with Him, and if I can't allow a friend to listen to my problems, or help me with a project, how do I treat God my father??? Prob. Not very well I am afraid to admit.