I want to start a community

Ok so due to a comment from Melisa about my 25 random facts my imagination ran a little crazy and I have had MY best brainstorm yet.

So Melisa told me she would be my cook and maid basically the ultimate host ever... and I liked that idea.. I truly do miss having someone else do all that for me and so does my figure... haha So I told her I'd build her a house right next to mine for her and her husband. this got me thinking.. Why not have all of my friends come live by me??? For this to happen it has to be legitimate... they all need jobs and we really should do something to better the world since we will all be blissfully happy.. So my idea came to life. See Mel's husband is a biologist currently working at the zoo so I thought well cool we can save some endangered animal, start a conservatory, which ever animal he has a heart to save works for me... thus starts government funding for land etc. well if we do that we'll probably need a vet, anyone know a good vet??? Then I thought we'll need someone to do PR for this place insert Julie. I would also like this to be in a 3rd world country somewhere, and would love for all of us to do some sort of missionary outreach. So Tayler your in charge of that, you have the most experience. I would want to teach the children of the area so all you teachers yup you are in on this as well and Tay if you want to teach you can of course! Along with teachers, coaches to get the people involved in sports and wanting to do sports outreach of course are coming.. so Cristy and Paige start packing. Well where there are children there are abused kids and children who need help with all their thoughts.. so Steph come on, now.. we are going to need legal and medical advice so Emily and Jim yup your in, as well as Ty and Miranda... one can never have enough legal advice. Oh and financial help will be needed with all the complicated non-profit stuff and the conservatory.. so I'd love to bring on Laura who is a soon to be CPA and Nick your coming with Julie. Along with Emily as our NP we'll prob need a pharmacist so Stephanie your in, and hopefully by this time i'll be a Dr. but if any of you know any other physicians who want to come on board they are welcome. :) Now we are all going to need food, so i'm thinking any farmers out there or avid weekend gardeners interested in turning that into a full time gig?? Any other professions are totally welcome and wanted. This is a very basic rubric to build from. I did only think of it in the shower after all... but yeah Hope you guys are as stoked about this as I am... I am seriously going to start planning this out... Ohh and I should probably mention, no money is needed once we get settled... totally on the bartering system and no stereotypes of "I am this so I have more or am worth more"... this is totally a God venture first, and we will trust him to provide. We are all equal in his eyes as believers and therefor we should live this way. So any ideas of where we want to start this little community???

25 fabulous things about me!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.(To do this, go to the Notes tab on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app), and then click Publish.

1. I am a fanatic about conditioners... tho I rarely have enough hot water left to fully appreciate it.

2. My favorite flowers are pansy's and tulips.

3. I tend to be my own contradiction... I think highly of myself, but nothing I do.

4. I am addicted to starbucks, not coffee just starbucks..

5. I don't have TV.

6. My friends are fabulous and all over the world.

7. I love to travel I like MEL want to see all & continents... and soon. Financing is appreciated!

8. I am not spoiled I am just loved.. this has been my response for years and I think its pretty great!

9. I am very sarcastic.

10. I do not ever want kids. They are fine when they are other peoples, but Definitely NOT for me.

11. I am loyal to everyone I know... until they forget about me. I am be angry and still do anything for them... they can tell me never to talk to them again, and I am still there. Forget about me and i'm pretty much done.

12. I don't know my true hair color.

13. The favorite place I have lived is probably Montana. I want a ranch there desperately.

14. The next permanent destination I have in mind is Europe.

15. Pink highlighters are my favorite.

16. I love sports but prefer playing to watching. I am doing a triathlon in June for the first time in a long time.

17. I love the outdoors, camping, kayaking, hiking, snowboarding etc. but hate the things outside like bugs.

18. My baby girl Pixie probably knows me better than anyone and she is absolutely fabulous!!! I don't know what I would do without her.

19. I love my family, but I am okay with not seeing them for extended periods of time. We are not close.

20. I am going to be an Aunt in March!!!

21. I don't know what exactly I want to do when I grow up.

22. I love pictures. Taking them, being in them, looking at them.

23. I loved having maids and a cook and would love to have that again one day.

24. I have no idea how to cook, and would probably starve without take out and a microwave.

25. I wear my emotions on my sleeve and face. People who don't know me or have ever seen can still know the exact mood I am in.

Hope ya learned something new!

"Rock My World "

I have a few devotionals that are e-mailed to me daily as well as verses, comfort thoughts... I like to surround myself with God first thing in the morning. I find that it makes my day immensely better and puts me in the right mindset for the day. So to facilitate this, I have daily verses sent to my blackberry e-mail... they come in at exactly 11:37 every evening for the next day. Some nights I am still awake and I fight the urge to read it right when it chimes because I desire for it to be fresh, exciting and anticipatory when my alarm goes off first thing. Lord give me patience! I also have 2 different daily devotionals sent to my work e-mail every morning, because typically when I get to work and get everyone started on their treatments I log on and check e-mail and type up my morning reports. This gives me another God reminder within the first 2 hours of being awake. Talk about overloading myself with Godliness. I love it!!! There are days when one or both gets deleted without reading, on those days, I hate to admit it, I am usually so busy that I don't get to spend much time at the computer for personal improvement. I have noticed in those days, I tend to be a little more moody and sullen, the exact opposite of where I strive to be. God definitely has a profound hold of my emotions. All this being said Today only one devotional was deleted the second I felt drawn to... and as I read I knew why. It basically is my life and I wanted to share it. So here it is! It is from crosswalk ministries and written by Lysa TerKeurst.

Unsettle me.

These are the two words rattling about in my brain today. I almost wish it was a more glamorous prayer. Surely more eloquent words could be found for what I'm feeling led to pursue during this new year. But these are the words - this is the prayer for my 2009.

The funny thing is I've spent my whole existence trying to find a place to settle down, people to settle down with, and a spirit about me worthy of all this settled down-ness. All of this is good. A contented heart, thankful for its blessings is a good way to settle.

But there are areas of my life that have also settled that mock my desires to be godly woman - compromises if you will. Attitudes that I've wrapped in the lie, "Well, that's just how I am. And if that's all the bad that's in me, I'm doing pretty good."

I dare you, dear soul of mine, to notice the stark evidence of a spirit that is tainted and a heart that must be placed under the microscope of God's Word. Yes, indeed, unsettle me Lord.

Unearth that remnant of unforgiveness.

Shake loose that justification for harshness.

Reveal that broken shard of pride.

Expose that tendency to distrust.

Unsettle me in the best kind of way. For when I allow Your touch to reach the deepest parts of me - dark and dingy and hidden away too long - suddenly, a fresh wind of life twists and twirls and dances through my soul.

I can delight in forgiveness and love more deeply.

I can discover my gentle responses and find softer ways for my words to land.

I can recognize the beauty of humility and crave the intimacy with God it unleashes.

I can rest assured though harsh winds blow, I will be held.

Goodbye to my remnants, my justifications, shards, and tendencies. This is not who I am, nor who I was created to be.

Goodbye shallow love, sharp words, self-focus, and suspicious fears. I am an unsettled woman who no longer wishes to take part in your distractions or destructions.

Welcome deeper love, softer words, unleashed intimacy, and the certainty I am held.

Welcome my unsettled heart.

Welcome 2009

While I may not have written the exact 2 words... I have thought them and I truly desire for God to continue to shake things up and rock my world! What a blessing to know and hear someone else's desire for the same thing in their own life, and learn a way to invest myself in it even more. If this pertains to your life as well, join me in reading Hebrews over the next few weeks and see how God reveals himself to you. I'd love to hear about it and I am sure you readers will see how He is speaking to me!

emotional??? no, not me!

So as most of my friends know, I don't have tv. No its not because I think it rots your brain, and no its not because i'm to broke to have it... its because I am not home enough to watch it, and so I can't justify paying for it. Well I also am behind the time technology challenged and have no idea how rabbit ears and those digital converter box things work or how I would go about getting them and installing them.. and that is all okay with me b/c everything I want to watch with the exception of ESPN I can watch for free online and when it is convenient for me... so as usual Sunday nights are my show nights! and I love this, makes it a great way to unwind and relax from the weekend whether I have been working, playing, traveling whatever. its just couch cuddle time with Pixie and its great. Tonight however was a weird experience for me and I have no idea why it happened... but I watched 4 shows and by the end of each of them I was either in tears or tearing up... now I have no reason to , they were not horribly sad, disappointing, emotional endings and I'm not is a sad, depressed state... nor do I have any reason to be emotional. I am not an emotional person like this... now get me angry and you'll see emotional but i'm just not a crier so who knows...

unusual greatness

This week has been unusual as far as my schedule, and for someone who has an ever changing job and schedule that's saying a lot! But Monday while most of the free world had the day off to celebrate MLK I was sitting in meetings... no big deal they didn't pertain to me so I occupied myself with other tasks. I like scheduled "getting things done" time. I guess I should also mention that Sunday was a gorgeous day and warm, so Pixie and I layed out in the back yard after church... YaY! for sunshine and tanning in January!!! Maybe the beach isn't such a horrible place to be :) Monday night and Tuesday night I was blessed with a friend for dinner and some socializing which I cherished! And the food was great! Plus it gave me a chance to branch out, try some new places and just enjoy life. It's amazing what happens when you start hating your situation and you begin to take advantage of it instead. My mood has been so much more positive and I don't hate my life anymore. I also started a new bible study this week with my small group called RePurposed.. and I'm diggin it big time. Tonight there is more fabulousness instore... I have small group and I get to see one of my favorite friends down here! She has been gone so long I can't wait... plus everyone else who, once again, I am starting to accept and cherish. Woo Hoo Ok but yesterday all morning I spent all day watching kids pee sounds exciting right! haha not so much, ohh how I love drug testing... :) but the inaguration was better than I expected... and I was for the most part supportive of our new president. I actually liked and agreed with 95% of his speech... not bad for someone who was not enthused about him going into office. Today I am teaching labs all day I have the afternoon off, I have to go shopping for a dress for our Athletic Banquet tomorrow... hopefully my frugality can stay intact and I will find something adorable for a very adorable price haha... then small group! all positive, fun and exciting. Can't wait!!!

So I committed myself to a mission trip in Honduras. I am so excited. I truly feel God's blessing and pushing; so its done. Now I have to have trust that He is going to provide the funding and determination to see it though and I know with lots of prayer it can be accomplished. So I ask that you pray with me for trust, funding, support, love, and determination. I will be going with a group from my new church home and I am so very excited about this. I am through this becoming involved and committed to Parkway, and all the amazing possibilities there. God has been moving me to be involved and become a leader and open myself up more to learning, experiencing him, and his love thought some very amazing people. On the trip we will have the opportunity to work in medicine, education, possibly VBS, sports, house building, outreach to some of the mountain communities... I just can't wait to see how God is going to use all of us and our gifts he has blessed us with to reach out and build friendships, and help these amazing people!!!

In another topic altogether, Today has been an amazing, gorgeous day, and after I got home from church in love with the warmth provided by some amazing sun, I put on a swim suit and got my blanket and spend 3 amazing hours laying out in 70's degree weather soaking in the rays. I am determined to take advantage of being on the coast and work on my tan in January! I love it!!! and feel free to be jealous while you're bundled up in jackets and pants :)

Praising Jesus!!!

So today is a praise Jesus Day!!! It was an ordinary day, lovely fitness gram testing, paperwork, kids and treatments galore! but I just started out in a great mood and it lasted all day! Maybe this prayer and trusting it to work really is as amazing as I know it to be... YaY! I had a great run... by the way I signed up to do a triathlon and so I'm working my butt to get in shape and any prayers of encouragement, discipline, etc. are always welcome. :) Tomorrow is my day to ride my bike to work... we'll see how that works out!!! haha We had worship celebration at church and I always am in for over of an hour of praising Jesus through singing my little heart out! YaY again!!! I have met and am starting to really appreciate some really great people here... I know I never thought it would happen in a place like this, but again God works and when you are silent enough to hear him and willing to obey it's amazing how fast things start to turn around!!! I am really starting to believe the people in my life who have been telling me for years I am bipolar... except for one little thing; my trigger is God! When I keep him in my sights and in my heart, I am pretty much on cloud 9. When I allow stupid crap to shadow him, and become road blocks... I take little detours that start out me going sideways, eventually turning away and then always coming back. It is during those times that I am down, depressed, hating my life, and just in general not so pleasant. So pray that God can stay in my eyes and my heart and that I can be a joy to others in order to share Him. I believe that when I am the bubbly self that God inspires me to be I have the ability to be a great witness which all comes from His grace! But its those dark times that I am afraid I turn people away from Him and I am afraid i will pay for that. SO I ask for prayer b/c I know through him and as many prayers and I can get God and I will keep our relationship going strong. I was told today that to guys I am unreachable because not only do I have an earthly father to protect and discourage men, but that I have an God gate surrounding me and God is protecting me. This was said in not disgust, but maybe disappointment.... but I really liked it. I love that God protects me and is preparing me for the exact right man and He will not let anything get in the way of that. So Praise Jesus for that Iron Gate!!! I am so excited for all my friends getting married this year and I can't wait to be there for all of them, I think the count is now officially up to 8 in the next 6 months!! woo hoo!!! I love you all and I can't wait! So I am off to bed in the best mood I have been in, in a very long time! Praise Jesus!