riding again! woo hoo!!!

ok so 2nd day, 2nd bike ride. I have decided I am going to try to do some sort of exercise or work out everyday. This has to happen, Its one of my many things I have been attempting, and failing at. But I am changing how I attack this problem I am seeking God to motivate me vs. me motivating me. Now this is all great for this week while I am still out off of work, the real challenge begins next week... but I am trusting God that I will continue.

So Today while riding I had a God saving experience! God's grace saved me from being attacked by a big scary dog god nipping at my heels... I must remember to bring the pepper spray next time. After realizing how close I came to being attacked, I asked God to continue to watch over me, and keep me safe... every other dog I came across on this little FM road just happened to be either tied up or behind a fence. They still looked and sounded very vicious, but I know God was answering.

These seem like everyday experiences, and in the past not something I would have given God credit for doing. Easily explained away, I passed the Dog's house he was protecting, so he had no reason to continue pursuing me, or most people keep their dogs behind fences, it keeps them safe... but really I called out to God and the dog immediately turned back, I asked for protection and safe travels, He provided. If one dog was loose you know others usually are.

So I am praising Jesus today, for both protecting me and motivating me! He is sooo good!!!

alone

"I understand what it is like to look up, and around, and not see the person you want to see, you need to see."

I read this recently and it made me think. Will I ever have this? Will I ever want, need, depend on someone so much that I feel this? I have been single and on my own for so long that I am not even sure if I would ever be able to feel this way about anyone. Blame it on the time of year, but I can't help but feel alone with a longing to have someone to call my own. To have someone to come home to, to call, someone who actually cares.

Friends and media

So all this news with Tiger I'm over it really... Until today I read a headline on MSN with my old roommates name attached as one of his mistresses. WOW! Shocker! I just love this girl, don't talk to her much anymore... life happens you know, but still I just love her. She is an amazing girl, very vivacious, just so much fun to be around. I would not have expected this from her, but then again it as not her who brought this up but a "source." I just hate that her name is plastered all over tabloids and such now regardless of if its true or not. Privacy people!!! Yes yes I know you get involved with the celeb. group and it happens, but really why does it have to. Up until now Tiger has led a very private life as many celebs do, their face never gracing the tabloid or magazine cover. This girl is not so much of a quiet person, being a big part of Vegas night life how can you be... being named to J. Colton's top 31 people in Vegas list. But to have private happenings put out there, by someone you know no less, it's just tasteless. And we as the buying public fuel the fire. We buy the tabloids, the US weekly's and just feed on other people's lives instead of having our own. Now I will not lie, I've been known to have a magazine or two floating around my house but I guess it just comes to light how silly we are and how the people we read about are real people with real lives, real problems, and real friends and families.
Kiks I still love you and know that you are a wonderful person!!!

grrr Rudeness.

Do you ever experience outright rudeness from co-workers? I just hate it! I mean if you don't like someone, fine; but to be boldfaced rude is totally uncalled for. For someone to call your office, and when the person they wanted isn't available to say "No, I don't want her!" very sarcastically and then to add "she doesn't know anything" well that is just rude and uncalled for!

procrastination

So "No Perfect People Allowed" series is amazing! Every week I notice more and more about where I am at, and where I should be. This week was all about procrastination... come on who doesn't love a last min. rush every once in a while??? But seriously, there are a lot of places that I procrastinate: work (blogging at work... I think so), cleaning/unpacking (yes I moved in in August... No my bedroom still isn't unpacked), and lately my bible study/quiet time... now it's not that I don't want to do all of these things, it's just that I never seem to want to do them now!

Last night, I was so frustrated b/c I was hosting my small group, rushed home from work, did some last min. pick of/dishes and waited..... and waited... and waited. Apparently no one was coming. I initially was irritated because I did all this and no one even appreciated it. Then i thought more and figured people were busy, but they just should have let me know. I kept thinking, maybe I am wrong and have chased them away, maybe I'm a horrible leader, maybe... the list could go on forever. This got me thinking, I hadn't really prepared like I should have for the group, was this God's way of telling me I need to get on the ball and get stuff done? I think so.

How frustrated must God be with me that this was the only way he could get through to me! *Slap* I felt it. That stinging sensation when someone smacks you down and tells you how it really is. Yup procrastination and laziness once again got me down and humbled. See the members in my group I know have good hearts, crazy schedules, and are busy. It does not matter that I get in trouble at work for leaving in time to be there, or that I prepare (when I do), or that I took the effort to make sure my apartment was spotless for them. I should be happy they make it when they do. I don't need recognition for anything I do from any of them.

1 Samuel 2:3

"Do not keep talking so proudly or let your mouth speak such arrogance, for the LORD is a God who knows, and by him deeds are weighed.

Yes Thank You God for humbling me!

Dogs are just the cutest! I love my sweet Pixie and she never ceases to amaze me with her cuteness. This morning, I was getting ready for work, we had out 5 min cuddle time and I put her back in her blanket where she sleeps when I'm not home. I finished gathering all my stuff, walked out to the front door, and one of my sandals was missing. Now 10 min ago they were both sitting next to each other right where I took them off. In the 5 min it took me to gather my stuff, Pixie went to the door, picked up one of my sandals and carried it to her blanket. She often does this, she never chews them, she just hides them from me. I guess this morning, she didn't want me to leave. I used to get upset by this, but now I just find it adorable that she does this as her little game and wants to keep me around.

How can you not find this face just adorable?

Seasons

I love it when the seasons change, I love the transition from what was to whats new. The part I am not so fond of is that I live in south Texas and we have no seasons.... j/k but really what I don't like, is that it always causes unrest in my soul. Now this is usually a good thing, but I am often reluctant to plunge ahead with the changing of myself. This year is different in that I have seen so much change already happen, but I am increasingly aware that I have such a long way to go. some of these include:

• Changing how I handle $. Quit spending and start saving and sharing.
• I need to eat better/work out more
  
• I need to get back to devotional time everyday
  

Really I need to get some willpower and motivation. I have noticed overall I have gotten lazy in how I am handling everything and that needs to change.

I love the God is working on my heart, preparing me, and showing me, but like the seasons here in Texas... there isn't much consistency in my life.