Hondo Ticket Bought!

Yesterday was a big day for me, I (finally) bought my plane ticket for Honduras for the summer. This is the beautiful place I'll be spending my summer.. jealousy is allowed. :)


Spending lots of money at once always stirrs my emotions, tugs at the frugal side of my brain, and just makes me nervous. I will never understand how I can make 5 gazillion little purchases back to back and not bat and eye, but when it comes down to investments, my stomach turns to one big knot with my head telling me that I don't need it... Shouldn't it be the other way around? I am sure that I don't need 99.99% of the little purchases I make, but when are investments a bad thing???

Okay, back to the post (please bear with my ADHD this morning) So, I bought my ticket. I couldn't be more excited about going, and each day only brings more excitement. I am ready to do the Lord's work, ready to live my life guided by Him and not my yucky boss. I am sad to have to leave my sweet Pixie for 3 months, and nervous about coming back and having to move and start a new job. The nervousness and next job deserve their own post coming soon. it's funny how one little click of a button causes all these emotions in my heart and I only hope that the giddiness and joy from God allowing me this opportunity overcome all the negative I am sure to face in the next month.

Walking on water

So today, and really this week, I am focusing on stepping out on faith. Trusting that I won't drown and that my life will only prosper through and and all trials I am faced with as long as my steps are guided by God. As I was driving to work I heard this song, and while I've heard it a million times it just spoke to me today.

You look around and staring back at you
Another wave of doubt
Will it pull you under
You wonder
What if I'm overtaken
What if I never make it
What if no one's there
Will you hear my prayer?
When you take that first step
Into the unknown
You know that he won't let you go

So what are you waiting for
What do you have to lose
Your insecurities
They try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes
And you can walk on the water too

So get out and let your fear fall to the ground
No time to waste, don't wait
And don't you turn around, and miss out on
Everything you were made for
Gotta be, I know you're not sure, more
So you play it safe, you try to run away
If you take that first step
Into the unknown
He won't let you go

So what are you waiting for
What do you have to lose
Your insecurities
They try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes
And you can walk on the water too

Step out, even when it's storming
Step out, even when you're broken
Step out, even when your heart is telling you,
Telling you to give up
Step out, when your hope is stolen
Step out, you can't see where you're going
You don't have to be afraid
So what are waiting, what are you waiting for

So what are you waiting for
What do you have to lose
Your insecurities
They try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes
And you can walk on the water,
Walk on the water too.

by: Britt Nicole

I for sure don't want my faith to only be strong in the winter!!!

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Whats that you say?

Psalm 32:3 "When I kept it all inside,
my bones turned to powder,
my words became daylong groans."

God is our ultimate listener. I so often forget this, because I have so many thoughts in my head when I release them, I want a response. It could be a response I don't like, but I would still like something. Some acknowledgment that someone is hearing me and paying attention to me. See I like attention. But I have felt that I have become negative and 90% of what comes out of my mouth is negative and while I thought I knew the cause for this, this verse is pointing me in a different direction, and that would be back at me. That little kid adage about "you shouldn't point because when you do you have 3 fingers pointing back at you" yup it's true. I have blamed my attitude and mood on my co-worker because when I am away from Him I am not in that mood, but this verse calls me out on the fact that I have not truly given it to God and I have kept it all internally. I have, and I know it. I didn't want to forgive him because I am tired of being walked over. I didn't want to forget because I felt I needed ammunition. I have not been portraying a Godly attitude, or seeking God in the situation and my "bones are turning to powder". My life as I know it, is being crushed. I asked God the other day why it takes such magnitude for me to get on board, and get with the program, why can't I take the little hints, the nudges? I do think it is because I have not been open to accept them, I think that since I can handle every situation with God that I must try and I need to remember that sometimes He gives us horrible situations not to go through them but to remind us what He is delivering us from!

watergates...not that watergate

^{Psalm 29:10} Above the floodwater's is God's throne
from which his power flows,
from which he rules the world.




OK so this picture of the Hoover Dam at night with everything calm and serene, I think of that is God sitting on top of that, looking down thinking "man I did good, this is beautiful" "I taught these humans well, gave them so much intelligence that they could build these magnificent things" " they take this and harness it for better use of their resources, they create usable energy from the simple things I gave them"

How blessed are we that God gave us these things, and our minds to create these things? And yes I know the other side where the conversationalists think dams are the most horrible things ever because they harm wildlife, kill fishies, etc. but I don't agree so I choose not to think that way :)




Then there is this picture of the exact same dam and... OK so God begins hearing from us humans... "man God blessed me, he gave me a brain, and I used this to make this magnificent creation" We begin to take credit. God hears, but there is still some praise to Him mixed in there, He must think "man these guys are ungrateful" but he may let it slide and only open one gate... we as humans continue with things working smoothly we wanted to let a little water in it works, we create energy, we are handling life pretty well. we begin to think we are the ones with the power, we make the decisions, we run things, we become proud. God sees this and hates it, e says "oh yeah well I have the power and if you need to be reminded here ya go" and he opens all those flood gates, floods the river, the surrounding land, and causes power overloads because the equipment couldn't handle all that energy and power at once... Life goes back to the basics, we are humbled, and God once again has the power.

How often in our own lives does this scenario play out? In mine, I have to admit more often than I would like. I am learning to praise Him through the good and the bad. Life has so many twists and turns hills and valleys... life at least mine really is a roller coaster or mass proportions. There is no way I am in control. Even when I am doing as much right as I know how, I apparently still am wrong and am reminded of this by having things slap me in the face or taken away from me... and after thinking through things, God is just trying to move me, to shake things up, and get me back on His track seeking Him again... Why am I so stubborn and proud that it takes things of great magnitude to get my attention...