As I was returning home from a good weekend escape to Houston with just enough work tied in to pay for my trip, I got stuck on repeat with another driver on the road. I was driving my usual 5-7 miles over the speed limit and this other SUV showed up on my tail at one point, I moved into the right lane to let them pass as any courteous driver does and let them speed right past while thinking I hope they don't get pulled over. Said SUV after passing myself returned to the right lane only to slow down causing me to pass them. This pattern was repeated 4 times in the next 5 min and began to irritate me. I thought to myself, if they pass me and slow down again, I am just going to block them and cut out this nonsense... Then I got to thinking, is that the attitude God would want me to have? As i was pondering this, it came to me is that this is often what I do to God... I ask for his help, then I pass it by when its offered only to mess up fall down because I am trying to do it myself, and end up right back where I started behind.
God, please don't give up on me or become frustrated with me. I know I am often that irritating SUV, and I will try to be content staying behind you and traveling at the speed you have set on your cruise control for my life rather than gunning ahead. I know that you have a plan, a time line, and goals for my life and I want nothing less than to adhere to them. Thank you so much for your guidance, protection, and love for my life!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
feeling unfulfilled/complacent
So I have reached a point where once again I am feeling unfulfilled in my life. I realized that if I were to stay in my current profession and job forever I would feel like a failure in my life. Is there ever a point where you feel like you are good? Where you feel like you have achieved what your supposed to?
I know I should feel blessed and appreciative with everything God has given me thus far, and I am but I feel stagnant. I know when we feel this way I need to step out and take something else on... the question is what? and when do I have time? Is it time for me to be a little reckless and not wait for logic, not wait for good timing and just trust God and go? I already have plans to make a big step in the next year or two, but do I wait? In Zephaniah 1:12 the Bible tells us "It will come about at that time That I will search Jerusalem with lamps, And I will punish the men Who are stagnant in spirit, Who say in their hearts, 'The LORD will not do good or evil!' While my spiritual life is not completely stagnant, all parts of our lives are connected, and maybe it is and I jsut don't feel it hitting me yet. Which is in fact quite possible. So now I have 2 problems.. great, I love when I blog and make myself more aware.... UGH!
What are some ways you change complacency in your lives?
I know I should feel blessed and appreciative with everything God has given me thus far, and I am but I feel stagnant. I know when we feel this way I need to step out and take something else on... the question is what? and when do I have time? Is it time for me to be a little reckless and not wait for logic, not wait for good timing and just trust God and go? I already have plans to make a big step in the next year or two, but do I wait? In Zephaniah 1:12 the Bible tells us "It will come about at that time That I will search Jerusalem with lamps, And I will punish the men Who are stagnant in spirit, Who say in their hearts, 'The LORD will not do good or evil!' While my spiritual life is not completely stagnant, all parts of our lives are connected, and maybe it is and I jsut don't feel it hitting me yet. Which is in fact quite possible. So now I have 2 problems.. great, I love when I blog and make myself more aware.... UGH!
What are some ways you change complacency in your lives?
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