"Rock My World "

I have a few devotionals that are e-mailed to me daily as well as verses, comfort thoughts... I like to surround myself with God first thing in the morning. I find that it makes my day immensely better and puts me in the right mindset for the day. So to facilitate this, I have daily verses sent to my blackberry e-mail... they come in at exactly 11:37 every evening for the next day. Some nights I am still awake and I fight the urge to read it right when it chimes because I desire for it to be fresh, exciting and anticipatory when my alarm goes off first thing. Lord give me patience! I also have 2 different daily devotionals sent to my work e-mail every morning, because typically when I get to work and get everyone started on their treatments I log on and check e-mail and type up my morning reports. This gives me another God reminder within the first 2 hours of being awake. Talk about overloading myself with Godliness. I love it!!! There are days when one or both gets deleted without reading, on those days, I hate to admit it, I am usually so busy that I don't get to spend much time at the computer for personal improvement. I have noticed in those days, I tend to be a little more moody and sullen, the exact opposite of where I strive to be. God definitely has a profound hold of my emotions. All this being said Today only one devotional was deleted the second I felt drawn to... and as I read I knew why. It basically is my life and I wanted to share it. So here it is! It is from crosswalk ministries and written by Lysa TerKeurst.

Unsettle me.

These are the two words rattling about in my brain today. I almost wish it was a more glamorous prayer. Surely more eloquent words could be found for what I'm feeling led to pursue during this new year. But these are the words - this is the prayer for my 2009.

The funny thing is I've spent my whole existence trying to find a place to settle down, people to settle down with, and a spirit about me worthy of all this settled down-ness. All of this is good. A contented heart, thankful for its blessings is a good way to settle.

But there are areas of my life that have also settled that mock my desires to be godly woman - compromises if you will. Attitudes that I've wrapped in the lie, "Well, that's just how I am. And if that's all the bad that's in me, I'm doing pretty good."

I dare you, dear soul of mine, to notice the stark evidence of a spirit that is tainted and a heart that must be placed under the microscope of God's Word. Yes, indeed, unsettle me Lord.

Unearth that remnant of unforgiveness.

Shake loose that justification for harshness.

Reveal that broken shard of pride.

Expose that tendency to distrust.

Unsettle me in the best kind of way. For when I allow Your touch to reach the deepest parts of me - dark and dingy and hidden away too long - suddenly, a fresh wind of life twists and twirls and dances through my soul.

I can delight in forgiveness and love more deeply.

I can discover my gentle responses and find softer ways for my words to land.

I can recognize the beauty of humility and crave the intimacy with God it unleashes.

I can rest assured though harsh winds blow, I will be held.

Goodbye to my remnants, my justifications, shards, and tendencies. This is not who I am, nor who I was created to be.

Goodbye shallow love, sharp words, self-focus, and suspicious fears. I am an unsettled woman who no longer wishes to take part in your distractions or destructions.

Welcome deeper love, softer words, unleashed intimacy, and the certainty I am held.

Welcome my unsettled heart.

Welcome 2009

While I may not have written the exact 2 words... I have thought them and I truly desire for God to continue to shake things up and rock my world! What a blessing to know and hear someone else's desire for the same thing in their own life, and learn a way to invest myself in it even more. If this pertains to your life as well, join me in reading Hebrews over the next few weeks and see how God reveals himself to you. I'd love to hear about it and I am sure you readers will see how He is speaking to me!